It's been a long long time since you've heard from me, but this is just too good. Oh sweetie, to think that a few months ago I wanted to remember the good things and move on- with each passing day I realize more and more what an absolute shithead you are and how horribly you treated me and everyone else in your life. And now the icing on the cake.
Does she know? I can't imagine you wouldn't have told her, but then you never really did have the guts to confess your wrongs. And your mother, did you tell her? One day, sitting around the table were you just casually like,
"Oh so I cheated on my girlfriend last spring (again) and now I'm going to be a baby daddy."
I can imagine the scene.
More likely, you didn't tell them-couldn't muster the courage. It won't take that long for everyone to figure out, what with child support and another human's life irrecoverably tied to yours. I would almost feel bad for the woman in your life, if she hadn't proven herself to be a controlling brat. (#notsorry) Truly, the people I feel the worst for are your family. They have supported you and loved you through all the shit you've pulled, and they don't deserve this.
The only thing I can think is "that could have been me." So easily. And yet, here I am with an honest to goodness nice guy, a man who treats me with respect and love and gives me all the things that I didn't realize I deserve. And there you are, with a trainwreck life and no future. I know you thought I was a bitch, but I think karma's got me beat.
34th and Lexington
15 years ago
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